My heart beats to love sincerely

My heart is open to trust again

Your interminable strength 

Your resolute patience

While waiting for me 

To accept  

Under your wings 

I have been lifted 

Now ready to experience 

All the love you have to give 

Now stronger more confident 

Boldly unafraid 

Your gentle touch heals me 

Your tears wash away my pain

Thank you 

For guiding, protecting and saving me

Mere words can never proclaim

My gratitude for your unselfish gift

Your genuine love

I’m blessed

Ocean waves crashing

Cascading and rearranging

Patterns in the sand

As I watch mesmerized

At the beauty of its precision

How its flow has no end

How such a powerful force

Can gently ease my soul

The sound so peaceful

Pounding harshly

As it rolls

I’m hypnotized

Revitalized by the beauty unfolding

Before my eyes

The salty mist caresses my skin

Natures gentle kiss

As the icy trickle

Tickles my toes

Once again

Refreshed renewed restored

Grateful that this one thing

Has managed to remain the same

Majestic, powerful and strong

With a constant reassurance

A welcome home

Calling my name

As it has

So many times before

Sleep so gladly welcomed

My eyes tightly close

In preparation of visions

That only appear in the dark of night

Quietly in my dreams

You silently

So sweetly arrive

No words are necessary

To explain

Why you are here

Or why you came

Your silhouette

Your eyes

Once again relay 

Within their haunting stare

A love you took

When you went away

Contemplating if you are really here

Seeing you in a different light

As you come to me in the dark of night

I try to reach out

My hand passes through

An image of you

When I speak

Words don’t transcend

Your stare pierces

I don’t comprehend

The message you attempt to send

As you vanish

Once again 

Is miss you so 

My silent friend

A dark sky amid storms

The house so warm and dry

Thoughts of you return

To occupy my mind

A reluctant rainy day pastime

Sounds of drumming droplets

Pelting on the pane

A chorus that slowly lulls me astray

Clouded scenes reappear

I can’t turn away

A day akin 

So many years ago

To a time

When you were here

Arms that held me close

A trusted shield

A humming quaver

Within our souls

Each note derived

A paradise

To have and hold

Love meant to last

But like a storm

Change came fast

Old regrets

Etched on translucent glass

A stare that fades

A fleeting mist

A day can change

Most anything

A life once planned

While teardrops sing

As they silently fall upon 

The window pane

A painfull stain

Streaming silent sighs

As I held you tight

Crystal drops

Our shattered goodbye

Or a jangled mess

Thoughts racing

Inside my head

Juggling stress

Wondering at times

If my face betrays

Do my eyes

Give my true

Feelings away

Are they revealing

A vision of strength

Behind a closed door

Or the reality

Of a scared woman

Crouched like a child

In a corner

Of the floor

Each day trying

To realize dreams

Practically impossible

To keep pace

Conforming, adapting

To join the human race

With rules so difficult

To comprehend

A desperate attempt

Not to give up

In the end

If you happen

To pass me by

On a crowded street

And peer into my eyes

And think that you’ve

Seen the real me

Then you undoubtedly know

That I’m desperately

Trying again today

To prove to the world

That I’m doing okay

If only I could ask you

How to begin again

Alone here, not knowing 

Looking for my best friend

I listen to the wind

As it blows through the trees

Hearkening but not a sound

Comes to me 

If you were here to guide

You’d tell me what to do 

How to step a foot outside

And start anew

It would be so much easier

With your advice

Telling me to just let go 

You’d say, "It’s not that tough"

I’d laugh and think, “he would know”

Remembering how the hard times

Helped us to grow

So come to me now

And together well fly

Finding the key

To start this new life

With new adventures

With new surroundings too 

There is just one thing missing though

And that is you

So long you’ve been away

Taken from my view

Come to me now

A rustle in the wind

I’ll be listening

As it blows through

 

Until I felt your light

Shining ever so brightly

Beckoning in the night

As I shivered in the cold

Grounded by fear

Invisible to most

Treading an ocean of tears

Your voice a powerful force

Spoke to my soul

Your message of hope

Praying, don’t let go 

Strong hands gently cradled

My heart on that day

Restoring a love

So broken, buried and gray

With each new breath

A calming revive

A new horizon

A brand new life

How do I thank an angel

Who granted me wings

Allowing me to soar

To new beginnings