Or a jangled mess

Thoughts racing

Inside my head

Juggling stress

Wondering at times

If my face betrays

Do my eyes

Give my true

Feelings away

Are they revealing

A vision of strength

Behind a closed door

Or the reality

Of a scared woman

Crouched like a child

In a corner

Of the floor

Each day trying

To realize dreams

Practically impossible

To keep pace

Conforming, adapting

To join the human race

With rules so difficult

To comprehend

A desperate attempt

Not to give up

In the end

If you happen

To pass me by

On a crowded street

And peer into my eyes

And think that you’ve

Seen the real me

Then you undoubtedly know

That I’m desperately

Trying again today

To prove to the world

That I’m doing okay

If only I could ask you

How to begin again

Alone here, not knowing 

Looking for my best friend

I listen to the wind

As it blows through the trees

Hearkening but not a sound

Comes to me 

If you were here to guide

You’d tell me what to do 

How to step a foot outside

And start anew

It would be so much easier

With your advice

Telling me to just let go 

You’d say, "It’s not that tough"

I’d laugh and think, “he would know”

Remembering how the hard times

Helped us to grow

So come to me now

And together well fly

Finding the key

To start this new life

With new adventures

With new surroundings too 

There is just one thing missing though

And that is you

So long you’ve been away

Taken from my view

Come to me now

A rustle in the wind

I’ll be listening

As it blows through

 

Until I felt your light

Shining ever so brightly

Beckoning in the night

As I shivered in the cold

Grounded by fear

Invisible to most

Treading an ocean of tears

Your voice a powerful force

Spoke to my soul

Your message of hope

Praying, don’t let go 

Strong hands gently cradled

My heart on that day

Restoring a love

So broken, buried and gray

With each new breath

A calming revive

A new horizon

A brand new life

How do I thank an angel

Who granted me wings

Allowing me to soar

To new beginnings

Words of and to hearts

Connected by strings

Forever entwined

A gift that only

Love brings

Words have a profound meaning 

When spoken by you

Igniting souls, hearts and minds

In an incorporeal truth

Their healing powers

Beyond comprehension

Relieve the pain of loss

A love prematurely taken

Enduring faith and passion 

Echoed in your song

Reiterate how life and love

Are truly one

Never take either for granted

For so fragile are they 

A gift eternally enchanted

Rolling down the path

Skipping striding steadfast

In its quest

To reach a destination

A quiet place to relax

By the river edge

A stop to see the view

Making friends along the way

Everything so new

Decisions definitely difficult 

For anyone to make

Careful in its need

Not to make a mistake

Plans and charts help to guide

A safe course to never stray

Journeys end awaits 

A new and remarkable place

As the sun begins its golden fade

A cozy spot at best

Slender green blades of grass

Soft serene so perfect for a rest

Sleepy dreams offer time 

To recuperate in wonder

Just where to go

In this new fantastic life 

So much for a little rock to ponder 

When no-one else

Is here for me

I talk to you 

When so alone

Confessing all my inner fears

Thoughts through prayer

Through flooded tears

You listen so intently

Feeling my every need

Comforting my mortal pain

Leading me to believe

That all my suffering

Will soon depart

Troubles too will disappear

Fear will become an inner strength

To dry away my torrential tears

Doubt will subside

Love will be regained

Hope will return reunited with

A faith restored

A lasting love

A life adored

Whole, once again

Joy everlasting

Thank you for listening 

My heavenly friend