A cut so deep

Blood spilled 

Without a knife

A trust severed

By words that slice 

You wear your lies 

A clever cloak

To shield her eyes

But not all actions

Can be disguised

How many times 

She's turned away

Creating excuses 

Imagining that

You'd change

Continued acceptance

Only reinforces her pain

Hidden so deep

In the darkest place

As you palter, mislead

Day after day

She's led to believe

That somehow 

She is to blame

Despite elaborate costumes 

And masks you create

Everyone clearly sees

A fool  

In his own parade

When did we change

Each in our own distinct way

Growing apart 

While choosing to blame 

Time as the enemy

Or that one awful day

Rather than face the reality 

That it’s not just a phase

Change is normal

Even healthy, so they say

But I’ve been lost

Since the day 

That you went away

My mind realizes 

Your need to take to the sky

But a heart 

Never truly learns 

How to say goodbye

Did you try to show me

What my eyes refused to see

That one day

You would actually leave

If there was a way

To regress, to go back

I’d explain my reasons

For all those mistakes

That I never knew 

I had made

Or a jangled mess

Thoughts racing

Inside my head

Juggling stress

Wondering at times

If my face betrays

Do my eyes

Give my true

Feelings away

Are they revealing

A vision of strength

Behind a closed door

Or the reality

Of a scared woman

Crouched like a child

In a corner

Of the floor

Each day trying

To realize dreams

Practically impossible

To keep pace

Conforming, adapting

To join the human race

With rules so difficult

To comprehend

A desperate attempt

Not to give up

In the end

If you happen

To pass me by

On a crowded street

And peer into my eyes

And think that you’ve

Seen the real me

Then you undoubtedly know

That I’m desperately

Trying again today

To prove to the world

That I’m doing okay