Looking back

Amidst my tears

Remembering us

Throughout the years 

Once so close

Twin flames

We were told

We simply knew then

That we’d never

Grow old

So naive were we

Way back then

Life wasn’t always easy

But we tried our best

We laughed, we cried

Each, with a story

Where life 

Never died

But time has its way

Its own remedy

Of removing our pain

Giving us wings

Today, as I reflect

On those days 

That we shared

Together each

Representing one half

Quite a duo

You and I 

I really don’t know 

How to say good-bye

You left too soon

On your journey’s end

I hope that someday

We’ll meet again

Within the heavens 

Together we’ll fly

Best friends forever

You and I

Contemplating an afterlife

Imagining the where or when 

Dark or light

Near or far

Wondering if I’ll see you again

Will it be a simple task

To begin anew

Forging a forever path

Without knowing the rules

All life's treasures left behind

Boxed or given away

But, how will I

Say goodbye 

To our two 

Most important things

Will the days be long 

For that matter, the nights 

I hope that I won’t 

Remain alone

For too long

As I've endured 

Too much of that

You'll tell me the reason

Why you were first

And left so suddenly 

I believe, it was your plan 

To guide me

Always leading the way

Until then, 

Don't forget

We have a date

I'll be waiting patiently

For gentle wings

Upon the wind

As you rest

Beneath golden rays

My thoughts of you

Most everyday

Remembering how much

You loved the sand 

Beneath your feet

The warm sunshine

Its soothing heat

How rolling waves

Rumble a restful beat

Always your perfect place

This ready retreat

Now, I imagine

Your endless days 

Within glistening sands

Forever at play

Under moonlit nights 

Where, for your delight 

Thousands of twinkling stars

Paint the sky 

Your perfect place

Of everlasting life

There’s so much more 

Beyond our eyes

As dolphins frolic

Smug actors, in a playful skit

And pelicans dive

Stealing the show  

All soaring acrobats

Their performance so grand

Still capture your soul

As they always have

Here, everything remains

Breathtakingly alive

The salt, the breeze

Amid seagulls cries

This joy 

That only nature brings

I know that you’re dancing

Upon angels wings

Under golden rays 

You’ll forever be 

Caressed by the sun

And kissed by the sea

Again, my mind slips back

As I try so hard to progress

Avoiding foregone moments  

The events

That led me to this

Hardened by what transpired 

My mind struggles to suppress

But some old memories

Have their way 

Of refusing to be dismissed

Mere seconds change everything

And a moment becomes a last

How do I move ahead

When restrained by the past 

My hands outstretched 

Searching aimlessly

For a life, that my eyes 

Refuse to see 

Seeking a love

That was once so alive 

But is now, 

So cold and dead

How do I become

That elusive woman

Who exists

Only within my dreams 

She, who still feels passion

And enjoys your familiar touch 

She, who remains forever

The girl that you still love

 

The worst of her pain

Lies hidden away

In broken pieces 

She’s unable to grasp

So often she was told 

That her grief would pass

If she stood tall and strong

It couldn’t possibly last

Sadly she knows now 

That words evoke lies

Does she blame a voice

Should she even try

After so many tears

She’s perfected a mask 

To conceal a face

No longer recognized

Her reflection, a betrayal

Of a tortured soul

She counts the days

But sadly she knows

The time doesn’t always

Work as they say

Wounds don't heal

Quite, so easily

So many days

I’ve stared at this page

Searching for words

To help me explain

That I tried my best

To carry us through

The steepest mountains

On the darkest terrain

Trying to repel

What I couldn’t touch

A raging battle

An invisible fight

You, so young, so innocent

Never deserved

Nor could comprehend

That a shattered life

Would never

Be the same again

Each day quickly came

As we blindly ran

But there was no escaping

Fates awful plan

You may have thought

That I’d forgotten you

Or that you didn’t matter

In this life, so new

But you are 

What guided me

All those lonely nights

To find our future

You were the light 

With hope in your eyes

You gave me strength 

To never quit

And to remember why

With wounded wing

She attempts to fly

Against the wind

On the darkest of nights

Above a blanket

Of fresh fallen snow

Ascending alone, she begins

The long, cold journey home

Her scars remain deep

From the torrential storm

That cast her afar

Abandoned, lost

Weary, her wings tremble

To stay aflight

Until dawn finally emerges 

Among tranquil skies

Safe and secure 

Within the sun’s 

Warm golden rays

She begins her descent 

To a better place